2009-01-20 Australian Open Tennis 258 by The Malones on flickr

I know it's not actual rith now but I have to tell it. Australian Open was the first grand slam tournament I've seen on TV. And also it was the first time when I decided to learn to play tennis. So I bought a rocket and began to learn it. First I was a little bit lame but then I got into it. Since then I like to play it everytime when I get a chance to do it. But nowadays I have no much time as I had before. Anyways, I still love and enjoy it so much.

I remember in 2003 there was a long match between Andy Roddick and Younes El Aynaoui at Australian Open. It was the longest match I've seen so far and I very enjoyed it. They played with passion and fun. I was amazed. In that time I start to play tennis and when I saw them I was like how they do it man, it seems so unreal but it wasn't!

I've never been at any big tennis tournament but one of my dream is to visit all the four grand slams and capture every moment of a huge match. The Australian Open means a lot to me I mean I know I haven't been there but it was that tennis championship that started to me to learn and play tennis and I always shall be grateful for it.

New Years Eve Evening... by coquetboy on flickr

What am I going to do in Australia? And I began asking myself. My first aim is to be there but that's not enough. I'll have to do something, I'll have to make my own money. But there is plenty to look out for until then. So the first thing is to get a job there but it seems a little bit hard. Or the other way is to continuing my studies and working at the same time.

I imagine I'll go there for a few months to see what jobs can they offer and with what conditions I can do a job. I read some article in this topic and I think it's not the easiest thing to get a job there mainly if I'm a foreigner of immigrant but I have to try it.

It is also an important thing to know the culture, the laws and everything else what is requierd for my decision to stay there or not. Supposing that I get a good job. But what if I don't feel good I mean I'm there where I always wanted to go but I'm missing something. To avoid it I'll rethink all those things I'll want to do before I'd go there to see clear my aims, my future and everything that comes with it.

However, I also think to establish my own business. I'd work with pleasure but if I have an idea then why don't bring out my visions. But I got a plenty of time to thinking of it. And in the meantime I try to make some connections to see through other people's eyes what I can expect.

Mardi Gras - Sydney, March 2007 by Charlie Brewer on flickr

There's an annual gay pride parade for LGBT community in Sydney called Mardi Gras. In Hungary we also have a parade like that. But there's a very big difference between the two of them. People don't fear go out the streets there but here they do. They fear because of the attacks they have to suffer unfortunately. So here this parade seems like a stressful procession than a peaceful parade. I dream a lot of a world where everyone can live in peaceful with each other but the reality is completely different.

I always wonder how to people show tolerance to the others in other countries. Why I feel that they accept difference as a matter of course? They can do, we can't. But why? It is the question and maybe I'll never get the answer to that. Anyway, I hope people's attitude maybe can change. And if it will happen then those who are fear at this time will go out and enjoy the parade here.

A lot of people attacks this parade saying it's exhibitionist, disgusting and so on. I do not deny there are some exhibitionist there but just a few, no more. Persons tend to think and feel exclusively in one mode or the other and in doing so tend to misunderstand and underestimate what the other mode is all about. And they just see this.

I don't want to fear anymore I mean if it is a better place where I can be as I am why not to go there, huh? It will be the best if doesn't exist the word intolerance but it's also just a dream.

Aussie Icons by Kaptain Kobold on flickr

Where do I start? Well, the answer is more complex than I thought. I can't explain it exactly but I feel somehow I have to go there. In 2005 I decided to go abroad after I'll finish the university. But then I didn't know where I want to go and why I want to be somewhere else. Since then a lot of things happened in my soul, I was older and I had enough time to realize what I want to do exactly. Finally I made a decision and chose Australia. I try to explain my choice in the next few paragraphs.

I've never been abroad at all but that's not the main reason why I want to go away from here. I love my country with all happiness and problems of it. Hungary is the land of my nativity but it has a lot of things that maybe will never change. And I think one of these is people's attitude. I know well everybody has its own problems but here I always see that people harm each other instead of they'd help each other.

Then there's the question of tolerance. I'm gay but what if I wouldn't be. I mean I don't understand some people who hate or despise somebody just because his/her is different. If I wasn't gay I wouldn't discriminate anybody just for they belong to. But right here people always look the others' faults meanwhile they forget their own. And I notice that in a lot of countries everybody can live with each other without problems. Australia is a place like that I guess but correct me if it isn't. I hope so it is :)

So these are the main reasons I think I have to mention before I just leave behind almost everything. I always try to enjoy life here and I can but there is something you know from time to time whispers to me 'go away before it's too late'. And I guess it can't just be a coincidence. All in all, I go to Australia as soon as possible and I'll collect experiences to understand what they can do better than us. Why they are so happy, hopeful and why we are not.

This blog is following my long way to Australia with every problem and every hopeful and joyful moments I'll have meanwhile.